Dear Diary

[ I deleted a half of my post sorry ]

I'm not kind of girl who need a gummy bear for sleep anymore. I'm growing so fast since my brother needs a ton of diaper every day.  And then, my mom said that she's doesn't want to give me a money again. The bad thing is when she's said: " you should looking for a job which generates a lot of money". She's said like that by thinking she can spend her own money in Las Vegas and take a bath in the bathtub with a dollar in her hand. 

Actually, I'm very desperate with myself. I don't have any confident after  I'm graduated last month. I'm just thinking of my future, can I use a broom to flying like Harry potter do ? Or maybe can I being so genius and solve everything mathematics-sains problems when I'm sleeping? In the fact, I can't. What's I'm doing every day is only watching a Korean drama with a one portion of Samyang in front of me, Chatting with my friends and dreaming it would be a prince charming comes to my life and said: " I will marry you".

Ok, I will go to university this year. At the moment, I feel very excited but a little half scared and worried about a collages student life. I lived alone. It's that mean, I will spend a whole time of my life every day without my family [ except when I come home ]. It's not easy for me when you're a girl who needs food every time you feel hungry. I Should stop eat like a queen [ Read :  eating everything you want without thinking your money will run out ]. I will miss my life when I sit in the Dunkin Donuts with a cup of hot chocolate for 4 hours.

Like what my other friends, being a collages student it's so complicated. But if you're life with a thinking ' the reason why you're living now ' it's would be easier. So on my first day, I will smile bright and  I would hope to be kids with the extraordinary academic degree.


Pardon my Grammar.


Love


S